I'd like to apologize for this drama nonsense right off the bat for the New Year, but I wanted to write out an apology to all you guys and a minor explanation for my (permanent) absence after this.
For those of you unaware, I will be leaving r/a/dio indefinetely from here on out, and I will not be returning. I'm a pretty blunt person so here are the reasons:
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1.) We are now not allowed on /a/ save for holiday threads. I do not fault the mods at all for this decision, if they give us even a sliver of leeway, then other nonsense threads can use that as leverage for poisoning the board with their garbage. However, I started out on r/a/dio from /a/ and not being able to be there for the majority of the year leaves a sour taste in my mouth.
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2.) I have grown increasingly distant from the community at a large for the past half of a year. This is a simple one. I am very detached from a bunch of the new people/personalities and quite honestly, it isn't right for me to be in any sort of power position with such a lack of care towards the community. For this, I am sorry. I don't know where I strayed but I did and that's how it is.
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3.) This is a weird one. As someone who is monetarily in charge of r/a/dio I always viewed things differently from the staff. My end goal was always to make the listeners happy and to grow the listener base. Maybe it was because I have a (literal) personal investment into the server that I felt this way. Like a higher listener count equaled more revenue? Sometimes I would get really bummed out when staff members didn't share my enthusiasm or would ignore things I had to say. Maybe I cared too much? Who knows. I'll chalk this one up as a personal fault as well. Sorry.
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4.) I'm going to kill Kilim (heh) off, period. This is personal and I will not divulge details.
Quite honestly, it doesn't really matter. I made up my mind and if you are reading this I have already left. I just wanted to share a few words with all of you, the listeners, staff, DJs, before I leave:
I've been here for 5+(?) years and it feels like I've been here forever, much like our dumb bot says so in the join channel message. Ghostlyy, Digi, ed, Vin, Wessie, Eggmun, Kethsar, exci, Skye hell even Claud. This message is for you. Thank you. Eventually(?) we would all have gone our seperate ways, whether it be marriage (except for Vin lol, loser), a new job or simply being bored/fed up with the whole thing. I want you guys to know that I'll always remember and think fondly of our friendship/relationships, and please know that my banter was never intended to hurt you. Yes I can be an egotistical asshole but we all have our problems, and I have always tried my best to give you guys a smile. I hope that we'll still remain in contact one way or another but if not, it's fine. I'm blessed to even have met you guys to begin with, let alone refer to you as my friend. HOWEVER ED I STILL NEED YOUR HELP AS SYSADMIN FOR MY SERVER YOU'RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE
To the listeners whom I love so much, thank you as always for listening. The simple act of you tuning into the stream gives me so much joy - that you would take time out of your life and give it to us always made me happy. I don't think I will ever be able to have as much fun as I do here for New Years than I would elsewhere. Actually, there's no way in hell that will happen. This was definetely the highlight of my life for what a NYE party should be.
You guys are the core of r/a/dio and without you we are nothing. Never forget that. DJs come and go, staff quit but what good is a r/a/dio without listeners? (it's not). Thank you guys.
Once again, I really hope that this is all some weird attention grab and that come next year you'll hear my voice again and call me out on my bullshit for being a whiny loser and wanting attention - but if that isn't the case, I wanted to say a final thank you and goodbye.
I want to leave r/a/dio as I came into it as a DJ, with some music.
Be safe guys, God bless all of you.
Love, Kilim
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